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TWO-WEEK WAIT

My partner and I have only been told that we weren’t pregnant once.So, I can only talk about about that particular time.  See we’ve actually been through 4 cycles but only used our donor sperm on the 4^th cycle.   But because we’ve only used our sample once doesn’t minimize the feelings we have of being a failure.  Well not us actually being failures, but of the actual “process” failing.

The first three cycles were with Clomid, which did absolutely nothing in helping her follicles to grow to the proper size for insemination.  The fourth cycle was with Femara, which actually grew the follicles and thickened the lining, so we were able to use our sample on this particular cycle.

I can’t imagine what a couple is feeling, who has gone through 8 or 9 cycles and has not gotten pregnant once.But that could very well be use, as we are in this for the duration and really want a baby.

The two-week wait or 2WW is about the most agonizing thing I’ve gone through.This is the time between insemination and the day of the pregnancy test.You start with high hopes.  The day the insemination took place I was smiling and so happy because I thought “Here we go on starting the process to have our baby”. At the end of the 2WW, I was even more stressed and agonizing over every little sign.

I found myself asking, “Is she nauseous?”  Does that mean she’s pregnant?  “She’s sleeping a lot.”  Does that mean she’s pregnant? No, not really because she does that anyway.  “She’s eating a lot.”  Does that mean she’s pregnant?  No, not really because she does that a lot anyway too. You look for signs of hope in small things.

Then, the spotting begins.  Now I’ve since learned that spotting could mean absolutely nothing.There is something called “Implantation Bleeding”.  It’s when a woman actually spots around the 10-12^th day after insemination.  The egg has actually implanted itself into the uterus.  The spotting is usually bright red or brownish in color.  In all actuality it resembles what happens to most women a day or two before their actual period begins.   So again, I found myself asking, “Is this just Implantation Bleeding?”  Or is it actually her period starting in which case that would mean she is not pregnant and we have to start this process over again.

The day you have your pregnancy test, you usually go into the doctor’s office that morning and they tell you they’ll call you between 2-4pm with the results.  That was one of the longest days of my life.I wanted to find something to occupy my mind like going to the gym, but I still found myself thinking about the freaking test every minute.

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And then the call finally comes.  Negative!  It’s disheartening.  It’s a big let down. After you get over the initial disappointment that you guys are not having a baby yet, then you come to grips with the fact that you must go through this process all over again.  “Is it worth it?” And the answer, to me and my partner is a resounding, YES!

And to all of you out there who are going through process, I finally feel your pain.  I am empathetic.  And I say to you, hang in there.  And think about the fact that when your son or daughter becomes a teenager, you can show them the bill and say to them, “This is how much we wanted you.” “Now go to your room”.